Let the rain bring the possibilities...

The smell of rain is in the air. It's too early in the year for it to actually rain, but it's a nice thought. The air has been getting warmer, not just during the day but nights too, and little plants are starting to pop out of the ground. Spring, and the change that comes with it are just around the corner.

“I believe in running through the rain and crashing into the person you love and having your lips bleed on each other.”

~ Billy Bob Thornton

I've been telling the Universe something for the past...month or so. Waiting for an answer. Perhaps I'm not listening, or, as I told Steph today, perhaps my answer just isn't ready for me.

I have been steadily working away at coming up with ideas for things, without actually making much progress towards doing.

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

~ Mark Victor Hansen

Speaking of Steph, she recently posted an entry about actually doing. When I first read it, I thought 'Yeah, you have to actually make progress!' Never mind I've been stuck in my own self made quagmire of non-movement. Amazing how just smelling moisture in the air can make one realize something like that about themselves.

So here's what I need to actually step up and do in the next few weeks/months:
Get reiki attunement sorted out so I can help teach that class
Find notebook containing book notes
Create multiple necklaces of 3 main types
Make bags to place necklaces in for fair
Get bins
Get sheets from thrift store
Consider pictures to print/sell at fair

I think that list is good for now.



As I was looking for quotes to finish this entry with, I came across one that I'd like to share. It doesn't have much to do with the entry, but that's fine.

“In prayer it is better to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”

~ Mahatma Ghandi

I share this because during a recent journey group on the power of words, an old medicine man came to me and shared some words of advice with me.

"Have faith child, and let no prayer pass your lips that has not first passed your heart."

The two are quite similar in meaning, at least in my mind.

“The only thing that stands between a man and what he wants from life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it is possible.”

~ David Viscott

With that, I am off to get what I want from life. I believe it is possible.

Right Round, Like a Record Baby

I realize that records are one continuous groove that goes around, not several different ones, but work with me here. Lately I've felt as if I'm on the same record as my life, but I'm in a different groove. I can see where I would normally be, where life as I know it lies, and yet I can't get there. I try, but it winds up being awkward and disjointing as the record skips and I'm back where I started. The description is as close as I can come to my life as of late. I do something I would normally do, and yet it feels different, and the result isn't the same, and no one really knows how to react.

A good friend told me that it just means I'm 'evolving' ... evolving into what? Only the Universe knows that one at this point I'm afraid. Each time I think about it, I just get lost in the many ways my path could be going at this moment in time.

“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”

~ M. Scott Peck

So the Universe is pushing me out of my rut and forcing me to see things in new lights. Apparently I wasn't doing a good enough job on my own at it. This does spark a memory however. I was told, by a few people, that once I stop being snarky, drop the sarcastic qualities and live my truth, I would find my partner. The moments I feel the most out of place, are when I try and fall back on my old humor, on being snarky. It no longer seems to fit. When I press I just feel even more out of place with things.

“Sarcasm is the language of the devil, for which reason I have long since as good as renounced it”

~ Thomas Carlyle

“A sarcastic person has a superiority complex that can be cured only by the honesty of humility.”

~ Lawrence G Lovasik

While I doubt that I will soon become a sugary sweet woman with nary a sarcastic word oozing from her mouth, I will do better at tempering my words.

Sarcasm is often an easy way out, it deflects the focus back onto the other person involved. It's a great way to avoid actually being real and dealing with things that are happening, be they emotions, thoughts, simple words.

I will soon help teach another reiki class. I have a feeling that is the reason for some of this change. Energy has begun to move and change, and life moves and changes with it. Dreams become more detailed and graphical, activities turn towards the spiritual and the meditative, and your body begins to purge toxins.

I shall close by thanking the Universe for letting me see the jars as opposed to letting me continue to fumble along blindly in the dark. Thank you for letting me carry a candle on this confusing journey and for providing matches with which to light it.

“But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart...”

~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery