Spiritual Moments

I recently took a trip to Taos, NM.  While there, we visited Chimayo and I have to say, I found the Santuario to be Spiritual, humbling, and very calming.  In the past, I have often found Catholic churches to be places of great peace for me.  This visit did not disappoint in that regard.  My parents had both visited the grounds before and seemed to head right to where they each wanted to go, my dad to Leona’s (a restaurant/store on the grounds), my mom to the sanctuary to get sand.  We stopped along the way to take pictures, but as soon as I set foot on the little path leading up the hill, that sense of peace appeared.  I did not need to know where I was going because I was where I was supposed to be. 

Everyone who comes to Chimayo has their own reasons for being there.  Some come for healing, some to pray, some for holy water, some for the dirt one can collect from a hole located in a little alcove of the Santuario, some to ask help from others, and some come to visit Leona’s.  I was there because my parents wanted to show the place to me.  I was not sure what I would find as I did not remember my parents showing me pictures they had taken there on previous visits.

At various locations throughout the grounds, people leave rosaries, pictures, inscribed rocks, even crutches.  I was unable to get pictures of some of the most amazing sights as they were inside the church, but a few I was able to get give a taste of things.

At some point I had followed my mom in to the Santuario.  While she went to the alcove to gather some sand, I sat in the larger alcove and just took in all of the emotions, wishes, and prayers that were attached to the items left there.  I then went to see what my mom was up to, and she smiled and said ‘Hey, stand in the hole!’  Not one to question a random suggestion like that, I stood in the hole.  My dad had just done the same and his reaction was amusement at having to stand in it.  I noticed that I sunk as soon as I stepped into the hole.  I felt more grounded as I have ever felt, and yet, at the same time felt like I could just take off and leave my body standing there in the hole.  Just as suddenly as that thought came, I felt an intense sense of calmness pass over me.  The feeling of calm, spiritual connectedness brought me to tears and I had a strong need to step out of the hole and walk to the larger alcove.  I later learned that around that time, a good friend’s mother had passed.  I decided to leave something behind, and so on the statue pictured above I left a necklace I had made.  I did not have a prayer strand with me but the same intent had gone into the necklace that goes into the prayer strands I make.  We shall have to wait and see if anything comes of the visit beyond the sense of peace and some great pictures.

Life Cannot be Lived Waiting

I feel inspired, and yet…lost.  I is almost as if I have been living a half life the past few years.  I have discovered many things about myself, and yet, many of the things I have discovered sit, unattended, under utilized, collecting dust, and needing mending.  So then, what is stopping me from really moving forward with some of these things?  Am I just lazy, or am I afraid, or – more likely – is it a combination of both?  I want to run, to sing, dance, play, write, live.  What do I do instead?  I go to work, do my job, and come home.  I have moments where I sing and play, but not fully.  There is always a part of me that holds back.  This part of me does not want to be seen, she has been hanging on since I was younger and suddenly became shy.  Somewhere around 23 years ago I went from a rather outgoing little girl, willing to talk with just about anyone, unafraid to share stories, experiences, feelings, to a quiet, shy girl, a girl who did not say a word to anyone at school for two months.  I have let go of a lot of that, but there is still some that lingers, holding tightly to my…. to me, holding me back.

I know that some of you who are going to read this will say “Then just change and do what you want.  You are all that is holding you back.”  It is tough to break a pattern that you have had for so long.  Growing up, when someone told me ‘no you can’t do that’ I would then go and prove them wrong.  There would be a challenge to it, it would awaken a need in me to prove someone else wrong.  It is rare that I get that now, and if I do, I do not take it too seriously since I know full well that I can do what I want as an adult if I put my mind to it.

I have moments when my spunky, outgoing, inner self comes out.  These are mostly in comfortable places, with people I know pretty well… the yurt, church (during choir mostly, or small meetings, not so much during coffee hour).  I like to think that these moments are happening more frequently, but the shut down moments are still frustrating.

 

No, I do not need to analyze and examine and understand what happened in the past to change the future, but it helps.  It helps as long as it does not become your sole focus.  So, it is now time to shift focus.  It is time to understand, events shaped how I grew, shaped who I am.  Future events will shape who I am to become.  Life cannot be lived waiting.  Where will your path take you?

Cleaning up past thought processes….

Lately I have been stressed, doing too much, depressed, and frustrated.  All of that does not add up to a good thing, in fact, it usually adds up to quite a bit of nothing aside from parking it on the couch when one is not out being too busy to look after themselves. 

 

“If I feel depressed I will sing. If I feel sad I will laugh. If I feel ill I will double my labor. If I feel fear I will plunge ahead. If I feel inferior I will wear new garments. If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice. If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come. If I feel incompetent I will think of past success. If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals. Today I will be the master of my emotions.”

~ Og Mandino

The first sentence in that quote sums up what I tend to do, which leads to the second sentence… the third is where things fall apart.

Part of what is going on is my seeming inability to get things done, and then keep them up.  Let me give you an example… my bathroom is a constant struggle to keep tidy.  I can get it nice and clean and looking good, and that usually sparks a desire to clean another room in the house.  If I don’t get to that other room soon enough however, the clutter in the house starts to once again take over the bathroom and I start at square one.  For some reason I cannot get to the ‘general maintenance’ stage of things.  The same is true for my health.  I started a walk/jog pattern, was doing various aerobic activities on the off days and all was well, until my life once again got involved and I slowed down, got sick, back went out, etc.  Well, I now have amazing sinus pressure and my hip hurts pretty bad, and I have excess energy because I cannot go jog or dance.  While having my hip hurt is better than having my back hurt as it did, the problem still exists.

I do not want to be one of those people who blames all of her problems on childhood, but growing up it was always ‘quick, get it clean!’ and then the room in question was allowed to slip backwards to square one for the cycle to repeat again.  That thought pattern seems to have stuck around.  I have tried this and that method and so far have not found something that has stuck.  I believe what needs to be done is not adapting yet another program/method/etc, but to change how I view things in my mind.  I need to remove the ‘this can sit here for now I will deal with it later’ mindset and replace it with ‘I am done with this, it will now find its home’ mindset.

If I am going to do well in life I need to wrap myself around this concept.  I also just need to throw a lot of things away. 

“Better keep yourself clean and bright. You are the window through which you must see the world.”

~ George Bernard Shaw

 

My windows need a good cleaning.  I feel like I am floating along, unaware of my destination, allowing life to throw me to and fro like a leaf rushing downstream.  Somehow I need to transform from the leaf, into the tree, standing sure and spreading my roots out to find the nutrients I need to survive and provide for the amazing nature and life around me.

 

May I sway as the willow does, firmly planted by the ever changing banks of stream and pond.  May I adapt to my surroundings, bend with the wind, provide shelter and food to those in need.  May I move with grace, taking time to rest and replenish in times of silence.

The Little Things

It is amazing what one little change can do to your life.  When you make that change you may think ‘What’s one thing among the many I could be doing?’  And then…. well then you surprise yourself and the Universe and the PTB join in the surprise and before you know it, your whole world is different.  I am at the early stages of that change, but it is there, lurking all the same.

My body and I have been locked in a battle since I stopped going to karate classes in high school.  My weight has been all over the place, as have my not so healthy habits.  I’ve gone through periods of change where things happened rapidly with what seemed like little effort on my part, but I was not doing things in a healthy way.  According to a doctor, I was, but I did not feel healthy.  So it didn’t last.  The weight came back, the bad eating habits came back, and all because it was just too drastic, too hard to stick with.

A friend of mine (hi woobs!) has made amazing strides towards her goals over the last year and a half or so.  She has some of the same issues as I do, and yet, she has not been drastic about her methods or even her goals.  I like that.  So I decided, now would be my time of change, using her as a beacon.  I started going to the gym on a regular basis, eating right, etc, and the weight started to come off again, and I felt pretty good.  Then I got sick, and had to cut back on the gym and lost the habit.  Then when I would feel better, my back would act up.  The cycle continued until my back finally went out and I now have a great chiropractor that I see fairly regularly.  I am also slowly trying to get back to the gym.

With this decision, to better myself for me, a host of other little changes have come about.  Even on days I cannot get to the gym or out for a walk/hike/jog, I will do a series of exercises at home.  This morning I was even doing a couple of them while I brushed my teeth!  With this, I have been going to bed earlier, and getting up in time to see the sun rise and turn the sky a lovely shade of pink with some oranges in there as well.  Then I read today that sunrise light, is the best at making a person feel awake and rested as they start their day.  I am also back on track with the eating thing – I even passed up a brownie at my parents’ house tonight!  I never pass up chocolate, let alone a brownie… that says a lot about the changes I’m making.

So what started this all off this time?  A picture.  A simple picture.  People tend to put up shots of themselves looking the opposite of what they want.  All this does is make the person feel guilty and they guilt eat, which is likely part of what got them to the point they are at now.  Instead, I found one of me at 16.  Thanks to karate I had an amazing figure at the time, and felt great.  It is not my short term goal, but long term, I think I could get there again.  Seeing how I can look when I exercise, makes me want to do it as a reward to myself.  It isn’t something I have to do, but something I want to do.  I know I feel better, and look better, when I exercise, I just have to overcome the things that the PTB throw in my face.  I know they’re just testing me, to see if I really mean it, that is part of their job.

“Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.”

~ Karen Ravn

It's all about who you share the journey with...

My computer's been on vacation for a while. That's given me quite some time to think about really random things. I've also spent that time cleaning and baking (work loves me right now).

The past two years around this time I've been on my way to Florida to visit a friend. This year I'm breaking that pattern and am not going. Funds are short and there's too much going on around here lately. While walking out the door, or from the car to the office in the mornings, I've noticed something... it feels like Florida mornings around here lately. With the forcasted snow it will feel different tomorrow but the past few days it's been lovely. It struck me, that I've been leaving the state for a feeling, when I only had to notice it around here. Granted, it isn't often that Colorado feels like Florida unless it's the middle of summer and Florida is dry. I've felt mildly disconnected from myself, my past, things I used to do to welcome the seasons, and the Universe plops this observation in my lap for me to ponder. Is it really so much where we are or is it more who we are with? Granted, people with SAD have issues in places that lack much sun, but in general do people matter more than environment?

I am not saying that environment doesn't matter but is it as important? I suppose this quickly turns into a person by person basis scenario.

“Be careful the environment you choose for it will shape you; be careful the friends you choose for you will become like them.”

- W. Clement Stone

I haven't seen much of my friends lately, it's been a time for reflecting and renewing I suppose. I am at that point now however where I'm itching to go and do something with friends. Walk, have a deep conversation, have a rather light conversation, sit and watch a movie, etc.

“A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.”

- Annon

“One measure of friendship consists not in the number of things friends can discuss, but in the number of things they need no longer mention.”

- Clifton Fadiman

Live, observe, and show....

I have been meaning to update here and while sometimes, 'it's the thought that counts' the saying can't quite cover everything, such as updating a blog. Life has thrown me for a loop yet again lately. A few weeks ago I assisted a reiki III class and was asked to assist with the attunements. That was an experience I won't soon forget, nor will I soon stop nitpicking my ability to participate in the event. The only practice I had was in a journey where my guide had me attune him. He seemed to think I did alright, but his opinion didn't matter quite as much as that of my teacher. She thought I did alright for my first time, but had a couple of ways I could improve. I'm greatful for her advice since she has been doing this for years and I am just starting out. I did my best to see it as help and not criticism... I think I did well at that. It is a tough thing for me to actually hear the advice and know where it is coming from and act on it. My typical response is 'Oh yeah?! Well I'll show you!' Sometimes that response is warranted, but most of the time it is not, especially if you take care to only surround yourself with those who wish to help you rather than those who wish to use you. The distinction can sometimes be rather minor and hard to spot, that's where listening to and trusting in your heart come into play.

I recently had a weekend of... self discovery... no that isn't quite what it was. It was rather empowering and full of breakthroughs but it cannot be definied by 'self discovery'. On the 13th I turned 28, I also had another shamanic session, played the bowls with my teacher/friend, had an amazing time talking with good friends, and realized how many people out there care about me. Eye opening to say the least. The session mainly revolved around my root chakra and the scars that had formed there over the years. Some of the scars were created by me, some I had allowed others to create. They joked that I would be a virgin again after the session nad in some ways I think that's true, at least where my chakras are concerned. An amusing point that was made, is that I will no longer be in hiding, and yet I will be returning to my observer self. The first session I had a year and a half ago or so brought me out of the hiding/observation mode/mindset and this one partially brings me back. Though I do not see it so much as bringing me back but showing me another way to be an observer. One can completely hide in the shadows and observe, never letting themselves be seen; or one can observe while being out in the open. The second type of observation is often harder as the mind can start to switch into 'look at me!' mode because you must want to be observed and seen if you are out there putting on a show. The intention must be changed and made clear in these instances. Show yourself, only show yourself caring for the other person/people you are with. Make them the focus as you watch their energies/emotions/actions.

“The universe as we know it is a joint product of the observer and the observed”

~ Teilhard de Chardin

The point that the Universe seems to be pushing home for me lately, is to outwardly show, outwardly demonstrate. It is easy for me to internally demonstrate a feeling or a thought or to demonstrate it with a look, not so easy to actually demonstrate it. By this I mean physically demonstrate something. During the attunement I did not physically push symbols into people with my breath but did so in my mind. This is fine for myself but the students being attuned needed that physical reminder of what was happening. During one of the exercises we did a role play activity where one was the parent, one the child, and I could not speak my part and reverted back to trying to get it across with just energy. I have a friend who often reminds me to use my words rather than just gesturing and expecting him to get it. While he is getting better at deciphering my gestures or looks, I should not rely on his ability to understand my point at all times when I do not actually share/speak my point or my desires.

Attempting to find quotes on speaking, most I find hint at not speaking and letting emotions simply be and be felt. There are pages of quotes from people regretting how much they have said, how people do not regret having said too little. This does not take into effect all the people who say 'If only I had said....' when a relationship or a life ends. I think the trick, is to say what you mean and feel with more than a modicum of respect for the recipient of your words.

I close with this...
Speak carefully, but never fearfully
Love fiercely, but never obsessively
Demonstrate your feelings physically, but never abusively

I'm reminded of the saying 'an action is worth a thousand words' ... but sometimes, a word is worth a thousand actions.

Define it...

I hope I can get this all out...

The other day I was driving home, giving myself a pep talk of sorts. My mind started to wander down a familiar road. People ask us what we do for a living and we answer with 'I am ...' Rather than 'I ...' We are so defined by our jobs that we don't even think twice about saying that our job is what we are. Because of that, I started to think 'who am I?' I'm not talking about the fuzzy, way out there in the middle of space answer, but the now, the here. As I type I can already tell that what I told myself that night won't come out in my fingers as they type away. But that's ok. The 'me' I am changes with each breath I take.


"I am more than I know myself to be."
~Anonymous


I am a healer, I am a woman, I am someone who is ready to open up, to be seductive if the right key is found, I am sensual, caring, serious. I am a counselor, a friend, a soft place to land when things are rough. I am a reiki practitioner, practicing each day to be the master that is within. I am bold and brazen, yet I am shy and quiet. I am a person who loves to be outside when the world is full of mist and mystery, when the forest turns into a land from the imagination. I am a nature freak, with a taste for things only found in the city. I am sensitive and because of that, I am strong. I am a lover who sometimes falls to easily and too quickly, but has no regrets in doing so. I am a writer, a jeweler, a minister, a teacher. I am an old soul who is separate yet never alone. I am ready, ready to step into my power as a person, ready to learn how to tap into all aspects of my being. I am ready to do great things. I am me.

If you read my list, and question some of it, talk to me, ask me, maybe I can help you to see that part of me. For those who know what I do daily to earn a living, you'll notice I did not mention that job in this list. It doesn't define me. It allows me to be who I am safely but it is not me.

So then.... who are you?

Let the rain bring the possibilities...

The smell of rain is in the air. It's too early in the year for it to actually rain, but it's a nice thought. The air has been getting warmer, not just during the day but nights too, and little plants are starting to pop out of the ground. Spring, and the change that comes with it are just around the corner.

“I believe in running through the rain and crashing into the person you love and having your lips bleed on each other.”

~ Billy Bob Thornton

I've been telling the Universe something for the past...month or so. Waiting for an answer. Perhaps I'm not listening, or, as I told Steph today, perhaps my answer just isn't ready for me.

I have been steadily working away at coming up with ideas for things, without actually making much progress towards doing.

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

~ Mark Victor Hansen

Speaking of Steph, she recently posted an entry about actually doing. When I first read it, I thought 'Yeah, you have to actually make progress!' Never mind I've been stuck in my own self made quagmire of non-movement. Amazing how just smelling moisture in the air can make one realize something like that about themselves.

So here's what I need to actually step up and do in the next few weeks/months:
Get reiki attunement sorted out so I can help teach that class
Find notebook containing book notes
Create multiple necklaces of 3 main types
Make bags to place necklaces in for fair
Get bins
Get sheets from thrift store
Consider pictures to print/sell at fair

I think that list is good for now.



As I was looking for quotes to finish this entry with, I came across one that I'd like to share. It doesn't have much to do with the entry, but that's fine.

“In prayer it is better to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”

~ Mahatma Ghandi

I share this because during a recent journey group on the power of words, an old medicine man came to me and shared some words of advice with me.

"Have faith child, and let no prayer pass your lips that has not first passed your heart."

The two are quite similar in meaning, at least in my mind.

“The only thing that stands between a man and what he wants from life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it is possible.”

~ David Viscott

With that, I am off to get what I want from life. I believe it is possible.

Right Round, Like a Record Baby

I realize that records are one continuous groove that goes around, not several different ones, but work with me here. Lately I've felt as if I'm on the same record as my life, but I'm in a different groove. I can see where I would normally be, where life as I know it lies, and yet I can't get there. I try, but it winds up being awkward and disjointing as the record skips and I'm back where I started. The description is as close as I can come to my life as of late. I do something I would normally do, and yet it feels different, and the result isn't the same, and no one really knows how to react.

A good friend told me that it just means I'm 'evolving' ... evolving into what? Only the Universe knows that one at this point I'm afraid. Each time I think about it, I just get lost in the many ways my path could be going at this moment in time.

“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”

~ M. Scott Peck

So the Universe is pushing me out of my rut and forcing me to see things in new lights. Apparently I wasn't doing a good enough job on my own at it. This does spark a memory however. I was told, by a few people, that once I stop being snarky, drop the sarcastic qualities and live my truth, I would find my partner. The moments I feel the most out of place, are when I try and fall back on my old humor, on being snarky. It no longer seems to fit. When I press I just feel even more out of place with things.

“Sarcasm is the language of the devil, for which reason I have long since as good as renounced it”

~ Thomas Carlyle

“A sarcastic person has a superiority complex that can be cured only by the honesty of humility.”

~ Lawrence G Lovasik

While I doubt that I will soon become a sugary sweet woman with nary a sarcastic word oozing from her mouth, I will do better at tempering my words.

Sarcasm is often an easy way out, it deflects the focus back onto the other person involved. It's a great way to avoid actually being real and dealing with things that are happening, be they emotions, thoughts, simple words.

I will soon help teach another reiki class. I have a feeling that is the reason for some of this change. Energy has begun to move and change, and life moves and changes with it. Dreams become more detailed and graphical, activities turn towards the spiritual and the meditative, and your body begins to purge toxins.

I shall close by thanking the Universe for letting me see the jars as opposed to letting me continue to fumble along blindly in the dark. Thank you for letting me carry a candle on this confusing journey and for providing matches with which to light it.

“But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart...”

~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Quieting the Monkey Mind

“Meditation is the tongue of the soul and the language of our spirit”
~ Jeremy Taylor

Our lives are often so busy we forget to sit and rest our minds for a few moments each day.



I started this entry a few days ago... and then stopped. To me that is a great example of needing to just sit sometimes. Instead I got so wrapped up in things and got busy and tired and and and. Bottom line is, the entry sat dormant for several days waiting to be finished. My week has been so hectic between working, going to the gym, trying to spend time with family, etc, that I haven't really taken a moment to just be quiet and breathe. Even when I try and take a few moments before bed my mind is racing with thoughts from the day or upcoming days. So I shall now resolve to try and work more meditation back into my life. It's time. To that end, I'm browsing the podcasts to see if there's anything new I might want to listen to.

Believe

I've been taking stock of things recently... life, direction, motivation... you name it I'm eyeballing it. I'm ready for my life to go in a direction that it hasn't really been going. So now the task becomes figuring out how to get things going in the direction I want. That or just charging in blindly... that doesn't really work usually so that plan is out the window.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about what I do versus what I am. What I do is what pays the bills, provides health insurance, etc. What I am is what drives me, what gets me going, etc. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy my job. There's just more out there that really interests me.

This entry is showing all the signs of bouncing from topic to topic. They're all related and connected though, I promise. It might not be all too evident however.

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?
~ Stephen Levine

I'm ready.

I've been saying for months how I'm ready for change, as if saying it multiple times will somehow magically make the universe realize that it can hit me with change. This of course has dangers as well because the universe could suddenly decide to hit me all at once rather than gently send it on my way.

You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with.
~ Wayne W. Dyer

So now I begin to make the changes in my life that need to be made in order to achieve what I want to achieve. I can see the final picture, I see it all the time, I'm just not sure how to get from A to C without first knowing what B is. Faith has been placed in myself and the PTB.

As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.
~ Emmanuel

Deliberate Intensity of Life

I often talk about change, how I feel it coming, how it's making my life go wonky, etc. Despite all that, I don't often stop and reflect on changes when they actually happen, or what they mean. The new year has brought changes with it this time. They're subtle but quite obvious at the same time. I'm more on point with things this time around. I've made a decision to be my true self because that is the only way that I'm going to get where I want to get in life. If I can't buckle down and get the job done now when I'm in a support position, how can I expect to do it when I'm in charge of things?

Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe. ~ Gail Devers

So, now that I've begun to be my true self again, where does that lead? I am back to being in charge of things, not taking slack from anyone, am requesting others to challenge me, and am challenging them to be their true selves. Part of all of that is simple trust.

When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught to fly. ~ Patrick Overton

Trust is never that simple of course. It takes a lot of effort on your part, to let yourself go to that place. You have to be ok with yourself and all the ups and downs that come with that self. We never have been, nor ever shall be perfect except in our imperfections. We have good days, we have bad days, we have days that are just days with no real good or bad quality to them. The trick then, is to be able to look yourself in the eye and say 'Here I am, this is it. I can live to my full potential or I can live a passive life and I cannot be passive!'

Life is to be lived. If you have to support yourself, you had bloody well better find some way that is going to be interesting. And you don't do that by sitting around wondering about yourself. ~ Katharine Hepburn

So, live deliberately, and live intensely. Show the world who you are and what you stand for, and don't be afraid to stand out in the process.

Gratitude

Today in covenant group we discussed changes in the past year as well as those who helped us make some positive changes. Part of that was figuring out if we had expressed our gratitude to those who had helped us. That was a tough question for me... there have been so many helpful people this past year who have brought about so much change in me and my life that I couldn't make the list out in the time allotted. Then I realized that I hadn't really thanked people. One of the group members brought up the idea of living a life that they would want you to live is one way to thank a person. Which is true. But still, it's nice to actually thank someone now and again.

So here's my challenge to myself, to write thank you notes to at least 5 people who really matter in my life who have really helped me out. Not just a simple 'thanks' or 'thank you' but a really heartfelt note written just for them.

I'll update on how that goes as I start doing it.

At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has a cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.
~ Albert Schweitzer

From my calendar at work for January:
There is nothing better than the encouragement of a good friend.
~ Jean Jacques Rousseau

New year, new times

So it's a new year...and it started off with dreams that are more confusing than anything else. I hope it's not a teaser of what's to come. Knowing me it will be however.

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
~ Leon Joseph Cardinal Suenens

I have a strange feeling about this year. It's a good feeling and a somewhat nerve producing feeling. I feel like I'm on the cusp of change, of doing what I'm in this town to do. That's where the nerves come in. If I finish what I'm here to finish, do I stay after that or do I move on and start on my new task? Also curious as to what that new task might be. Time will tell.

Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man. ~Benjamin Franklin

Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us. ~Hal Borland

Every man should be born again on the first day of January. Start with a fresh page. Take up one hole more in the buckle if necessary, or let down one, according to circumstances; but on the first of January let every man gird himself once more, with his face to the front, and take no interest in the things that were and are past. ~Henry Ward Beecher